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The question of why must everything always be so difficult, resonates in me was after her for ages and the answer always to move. It's so hard because I do and it was hard because I know that I am myself, it is even harder. When answering a question, you always think you ahead, you've made a step but I think now: What now?
The answer is there, But what follows? As it follows from this?

I love my parents, so incredible. I must just write here now. Not because I want to specify, but just for me. In the event that I forget again, or simply does not want to admit. They are not perfect certainly not. But who is? I also do not want to. I do not want perfection from anyone. Perfection is impossible.
Our family might seem from the outside, very normal, orderly and easily. But it is not by far. I will not now enumerate our errors, as mistakes, every family. Only, I should grow all over the head again, I will Know that I love her and that she loves me. And they do. With small, almost insignificant gesture. Not even with words, but rich these gestures. There was and is determined also be times where I have the feeling that these gestures do not exist or they are not enough.

have held still on the phone with Angie. Since then she is in Darmstadt, I've not heard from her. It was so great to hear them. It was only then I noticed how much I miss her. But since Petra and Claudia have been there, I could not while talking to her.
With her it's simple. Of course we are both exhausting and we have our quirks. But I with her, always works. No matter when, where and how. It works. And there are such people in my life, a piece of me go right ahead, even if I forget often.
I always wonder how much desire I can still contribute.

I'm still not over the loss of Julia. It hurts every day, sometimes more, sometimes less. Sometimes I imagine what would happen if they were to reappear. How would I react. And every time I'm too angry. Too angry to forgive her, why she is gone forever. To hurt. The one hand I want them to come back, but I doubt me that I could forgive her.
But Anne is back. What is now to be seen not as a substitute. One can not compare it, so it can not be a substitute. It feels good when one is sometimes understood easily. Without much explanation, justification.

Although I wanted to participate in NaNo, I have to cancel it. I do not feel it. What's wrong with writing? Yes, I said, I want to write, I must write. But no.
The question that I can actually, I often ask myself. I know it sounds pathetic, but it employs just me. For me it was always just books but my knowledge is only superficial. Rather trivial superficial. But despite all it's all I have. When I read, I want to make me not necessarily. I want to lose myself and be found, I want to feel, feel differently, I want to be entertained, I want to be understood. I want to have to read a Dostojeswki, so I will only be taken seriously.
and then started writing. Just like that, out of nowhere. It was there and I had something. I had something the others did not have. I had the illusion that I could be I in the letter. Wer auch immer das war, aber es war jemand.  Ich war jemand, so kitschig es klingt. Ich habe geschrieben, um zu schreiben. Weil ich Ideen hatte, weil ich Gefühle hatte, weil ich etwas festhalten wollte, was ich anders nicht hätte greifen können.
Und jetzt? Jetzt will ich soviel fassen, dass selbst das Schreiben nichts mehr festhalten kann. Natürlich will ich noch schreiben, aber will ich es noch aus den richtigen Gründen? Oder will ich bloß schreiben, damit ich nicht einen Teil von mir verliere? Gibt es richtige und falsche Gründe? Muss es Gründe geben? Fragen über Fragen. Jedes Mal, wenn ich vor einem offenen Document seats, the feeling comes over me that there is too much. Nothing specific, just in general and banal too much.
is therefore not NaNo.