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I'm stupid, stupid, selfish, and especially inappropriate for any relationship between human kind

yesterday I got all messed up, which I had not messed up and so the best thing that could ever happen to me excluded from my life. How mindless can you get? How blind can you really act?

I have turned my back in recent weeks in the human being that I never never never never never never wanted to be. I have my cold heart to govern again, instead of listening to my gut feeling. And why? WHY? Because I once again panic over the deep, got to the reality and my memories. I would not again destroy something that saved my life and instead to act as usual, I wanted to do it differently. And what did I gain? I thought I'd get all ruined.

I came the problems of my friends that I can never ever be as close as they are right. So I have my thoughts directed at them, I'm so bothered that they are distracted, but secretly I wanted to distract myself. Did not even in front of me again have to admit, is all that important to me to destroy.

When I wrote yesterday that it's over, I knew at the time warned that it would probably be the biggest mistake of my life and gave me Lara the accused. I did not want us to tear us further. I did not want to hear all the time from her that she was the culprit and she said nothing means more. I happen to have the incredible talent, people from me and then if they really want to cling to me.

I have treated like dirt and put off the time. Ran away when she wanted to tell me what a Riesenidiotin I am. I just was not there. Was with people that I make but our lives but never could keep my life alive as they do. I need to know how you breathe, how you live, how does one know that it is possible. I need them just as much.

It is true that I was there for my friends here and I can not apologize for it and would that I took care of them. But what I need to apologize is that I have encountered the most important person in my life from me, was not there, although she was always there for me, I'm listed as an asshole that takes what It needs to return without anything and my blindness.

I gave her the feeling that I need it no more and that means nothing to me. I was really excited about how she could think of, but I know myself that I would not have otherwise felt. We have been disappointed too many times, have been duped and exploited, that such feelings creep in quickly. I would have to remember, but I've taken for granted that she understands me and accepts my actions, though I had forgotten that it is not just any person in my area, but just as I am.

It hurts so inhuman to have lost you. Maybe you can someday my apology, which came much too late to take ...